See-Saws are bad…

In the past few days, my mind has either been a sift, or a see-saw. Either I was heading into drama  head-on, or I was walking away from it and my mental state was like a wonderful see-saw. Yesterday and today was really,  really bad. I didn’t sleep well last night, so that means today I slept in until about 1pm. I was explaining to a friend yesterday why I am the way I am and really, I got nowhere of why. I am a very caring person but in the past month or so it really has just bit me in the ass, so  I have backed away and now the see-sawing begins. Taking anxiety medicine has yet to have had an effect so I may need to figure out another solution.

I consider myself very close to all my friends and have found out that the feelings are not always mutual, A lot of the drama comes from that I suppose, however, When I am unable to help friends, or have a sense of being there for them, I feel that I am useless. Now, more than ever because I am also unemployed. Ha, funny how things work.

I also thought that running or walking or something outside would help me, no it doesn’t physically I feel ok, but mentally I am still cloudy and am still unsure of many things.

Doorsteps are dangerous for good moods.

It is about the right time when all drama is off me, and I am actually enjoying myself, when again, drama is left right on my doorstep. It is now to the point where I am just gonna ignore it…pretend it doesn’t exist and then go on with my day. It usually goes nuts when I end up having to deal with it or talk to someone about it….. ERGO…….ignoring it and everyone involved because its less crap that I am gonna worry about. A less angry me is a better, and people want to deal with the better me.

New year, new reflections and up to date posts….

How its been just about 4 months since I have posted anything on the blog. Things have been busy, lazy, depressing, fun, and exciting. I hope to keep things up to date now. The past four months have brought  The Tonight Show for my birthday, a trip to Disney World in Oct., starting a new job as a graphic designer, my nephew being in the hospital for over a week, and finishing school for the semester. All and all, I am happy 2009 is over. I am happy to start fresh with a new year. More to come in the coming days !

Whisky or Whiskey ?

I ended up taking a nice camping trip (this years vacation) to Kentucky from July 30 – August 2nd. I had to say it was the most fun I have had in a long time, it was a nice change of scenery, and a nice change of pace for me. I went with 6 other guys including 3 hempfield guys, two of which were my former teachers, and 3 others I have just met but were friends of the others. Terry and and his friends are big Indy car racing fans; so we had a camp ground 4 minutes away from Kentucky Speedway.

I have to say; I do not think I have been drunk, let alone hungover so much in my life. It was hardcore camping from thursday night to sunday morning with no electricity, and no water.

Friday was spent all day traveling to 4 of the 8 whisky/whiskey distilleries; we ended up traveling to  Buffalo Trace, Woodford Reserve, Wild Turkey, and Makers Mark). All tours and tastings were wonderful, tasted what is the equivalent to moonshine at Buffalo Trace, wow, I must that burnt going down.

I had my Wild Turkey bottle signed by their Master Distiller, I dont think I will ever open that bottle; Then I got to hand dip the two bottles of Makers Mark I bought. Friday was a long day, left at 8:30am got back to the camp ground around 8ish. I passed on buying bottles of Buffalo Trace and Woodford Reserve, just because they were a little more expensive and I was on a budget, however there is one liquor store here in PA that has Buffalo Trace; or so the website says, however they are both delicious.

Buffalo Trace has a few other names of whiskey/whisky which I am gonna have to try and that I can get in PA. Woodford Reserve I had before because Doug got me a bottle of it either as a gift for house sitting or a gift for my birthday; I will be getting about bottle of that, I can tell you.

Saturday was a relaxing day at the campsite just, sitting, talking, games, and lots of drinking. We started drinking about 9am like everyone else in the camp ground. It was a nice day out since we had been running around all day on friday. We played redneck gold, redneck washer, and we played some cards.

Saturday night we ended up tailgating in the parking lot of Kentucky Speedway. The race started at 8:45 and we got there around 6pm. That was a fun time drinking in the parking lot meeting other people and having conversations. I ended up not feeling well after the race started. They got around about 100 or so laps before I got sick and ended up going back to the camp site to relax.

Sunday morning we packed up and left. All and all it was a fun filled weekend with the guys in Kentucky, away from technology, away from work, away from school. It was fun to relax and have fun with some friends, and get to enjoy some nice smooth whisky; or is it Whiskey?

VBS at Holy Spirit.

Tonight at 6pm I am starting Vacation Bible School at Holy Spirit. This  should be interesting, I am in charge of games  for VBS, Ill have a group for 20 mins to play a game, and there are four groups of K-6th graders; I am scared. I guess I am about to find out how well I am going to be trying to teach some little kids about Christ and give them something that they will be able to use the rest of their lives; friends, fellowship, and helping them learn the words of christ.

HDTV for four days !

Doug and Noelle are going to D.C. for the NECC Conference, and I am house sitting; yep just me and the dogs. Thank god I get to enjoy HDTV for four days on cable instead of satellite because I only get 4 channels and I cannot even watch Conan in HD.

Weekend Packed Full of Busy, Insanity, and Fun.

So after a long week of not a lot, I was looking forward to the weekend. I spent most of the weekend working on two videos and they are both finally done (except for burning the project out).

Friday afternoon I helped Derrick with getting his new Macbook Pro setup and files moved over. He was quite happy to finally have his own laptop now. He was going on a Boy Scout …thing this weekend and he borrowed my Nikon D60, so I’m excited to see what type of pics he got to update the NE-6B site with.

Friday night I ended up watching Brenden for most of evening. He is to the point where is can walk he just afraid to let go and walk without help of anyones hand, or something to hold on too. He is also now saying my name, and a bunch of other words. He knows to say “up” when he wants you to pick him up, and he says “out” when he wants to go outside; it is really funny. I know he is gonna be a trouble maker since he already loves to play with everything in the house other than his toys; i.e.,  stove knobs, ceiling fan chains, climbing on the couch to look out the window, wondering what is behind the couch, smacking people on TV, playing the piano, and not to mention, he is now a master of going up and down the stairs all by himself.

Saturday was my first golf outing to the driving range since about, ohhh, 7th grade. I suck; Watching Mike and Doug hit the damn golf balls out on the range made me wanna compete to see if I could gloat; but no, I missed on the first swing and caught nothing but air. so screw that game, Im glad I have jury duty tomorrow.

After golf I hung out with Doug and family, Sammi is growing up so fast; she is so much fun to listen to when she talks. Doug also got me interested into more shows on the Food network like usual; The show “Chopped” is amazing, they had some pretty crappy chefs on apparently, according to Doug.

I have not been sleeping well the past week at all, I have been up way to late and not being able to fall asleep, so mornings are hell. I had to get up and get the video to my former church this morning before the first service. I am really tired today, however I know I probably wont get sleep tonight either because I just haven’t been sleeping; so we’ll see.

The video went over very well for the congregation, the church is in their transition phase of traditional vs. Contemporary. I am going to help a friend who works on their new developed “Technology Board” so we can come up with a “that be nice” “will needs” and “could use” lists to move forward with the churches transition. It will be interesting.

Im excited to get back to  work this week to see what projects come my way, so we’ll see.

Winning poker and retirement keg

Tonight was great !!!! I won just about 30$ at poker tonight and we all enjoyed a keg of beer to celebrate John Smiths retirement from Hempfield School District as 12th grade principal at the HS. It was a great time with some great people, and great beer !

Packed weekend ahead !

Tonight is our monthly poker night and we are all pitching in to get John Smith, 12th grade principal who is retiring a gift for our poker night.

Tomorrow is Danica’s 1st birthday party. I am taking the D90 along to take pics and get some good shots, It should be a fun time.

Sunday, most likely I’ll be working on the church website most of the day as well as Rich’s business logo. It’s not important busy work , just “busy work.”

4th person for HEF

Our friend Phil Shenk our 4th person for the HEF golf tournament. I have faith that we will not be the losing team but maybe the 2nd to last losing team. There is still plenty of time to get some practice in before the big day on the 15th. I know we have a good team no matter what other team trash talks us……….  :-)